i spent a whole day slacking. WHOO PEE~

it has been so long since i had anytime being cooped up at home. feels like being grounded.

but i like it. JAHAHAHAHA. ._."

and now as i am typing all these, i am happily resting my butt in that familiar bedroom at my grandmother's.

oh how i miss this place. the scene, the smell, the TV blasting at its max downstairs and my grandma naggy at top speed FTW.

ahhh, feels so much at home.

not that i hate my own family and my own home. but come on, you would miss the place you are brought up from after leaving it for a period of time right?

oh how i miss the fact that everything here isn't in English.

a little less of logic, a lot more of superstition. how wonderful :D

had to the day to myself to reflect too. got emo for a while ( oh hell right you are kesh, today is indeed a PERFECT day to emo) and that i was back to where i was again. staring at the walls and ceilings with no thoughts in my head at all. haha.

how marvellous. XP

and let me introduce you to the newest addition to chika's life..



NEKI NEKI~! zomg. look how cute he is!! -nyuuuuu- X3

*sense killing aura from one corner*














**ON MAKE END**

LOL. awwwww. they look so cute together right.. :3

great. i took an hour plus just to finish the whole thing.

talk about slowness. =.=""

oh well, hope they will love each other like hell much. JAHAHAHA.

ok i'm off, ja ne~.

:)

Labels: home, mojo, neki, neko

Labels: BORED

haha. i was bored at work. ^^ll

i have decided. although my health is not looking too good now, but i still have loads of people who loves me and cares for me. right?

so why gloom about it? maybe staying happy might just be the best remedy for my situation.=)

i am still working on my 10 random facts about brenda.

i know i know, i have been working on it since November last year. =.= but awww come on, it is worth the wait i guess?

or not. haha

anyways tomorrow is the kuro bara event. i am going obvious much? LOL

hmmm wonder what will happen man. sigh.

AND AND AND I FORGOT TO MENTION!

i had purple and blonde extensions (as you can see from the picture above)! and it is chio one loh!! stanley don't jealous. *eyebrowns*

the effect can't really be seen on pictures. but it is rocking real hard in real life.

CHIO CHIO CHIO!

and even if it IS fake (yes kisa, this is for you. haha) i am still loving it hell much.

i mean come on, what else isn't fake nowadays? so quit harping on my extensions.

i like it and thats finally. haha

zomg, i sound DAMMMMMMNNNN bitchy right now. =O LOL

alright i am heading to bed.

nights :D

P.S. i just had the sudden urge to do this. thanks for the bracelet. appreciate it a lot. was very sweet of you. :)

Labels: extensions, happy

ok, my blogskin is FINALLY done.

nothing fantastic. oh well. LOL

been sick the whole entire day. was not able to eat much too.

sad case eh?

ok i am going to stop here. don't want to blabber on with nonsense that you and I know we won't want to read.

haha. till then,

sayonara. ^^

my future seems bleak.

i am feeling intense fear now.

yes. F.E.A.R

my health is giving me major problems again. i hope this time i am able to tide through again.

i am too young to leave. there are so many things yet to be done. i don't want to just leave without accomplishing anything.

i am very very tired.

累

i want to quit everything. i am sick of tired of my jobs. i just want to stay at home and really slack.

i guess i would be quitting out on allan ba. i really don't think i can handle it anymore.

with health like this, is it even possible to pull through?

i don't know man.

in deep confusion and frustration now.

i want to rest.

i need to rest.

Labels: tired, 累

yo yo people yo.

long time no blog yo.

creating new blog skin yo yo.

so won't be blogging much yo.

take a sneak preview yo yo,



still construction yo.

alright. enough with the yos. damn irritating. LOL

yeap, my blog skin i am using now is some one elses. hmmm. i am just very afraid that one of these days the blog mistress suddenly decides to close down this blogskin.

then i will be blogskinless.

and i would have to go through the entire hassle to look for another one and that isn't at all good for a lazy person like me yo.

so i decided to make one on my own. saves all the hassle in the future. haha

btw, coralites that are reading this current sentence (yeap, thats right. YOU), would you all just squeeze out that tinee whinee tad bit of time to go to zul's blog,


http://muhdzulfadli.blogspot.com/

to finish the poll he has put up there. haha.

thank you so so much!

love you guys.

crap i sound bimbotic. LOL

zomg. that is definitely one hell of a messy look on me man. i look drunk. :O

i sure look like amy whinehouse god forbidden man. =.="

yesterday was my first and also my last time i am going to don on so much make up. man i feel so fake with them on.

but i at least i attempted to smile in the pic. ^^ll

although making it look even more wrong as a whole package. =.="""""

the look is wrong, the feel is wrong, the quality is wrong.

now people, THAT is what i called photo disaster. LOL

well putting that aside, i am really finding it a hassle to blog every time. but then again, if i don't update, i feel dreadful.

haha. me and my screwed up choices. haha. i am not surfing the web so much for truck loads of rubbish like i used to. so there isn't much of interesting things i can save you all the trouble of finding by sharing it here.

and oh yeah, i need to re tune my vicious cycle too. sleeping at 2 and waking up at 11 everyday. uh uh, not a perfect work plan for me. haha.

how am i suppose to keep healthy in this way? i know la. 2 might still very early for you all. but it isn't prime for me yo.

so much for having years of resolutions regarding sleeping early. does the growth of age equates to sleeper later into the night? LOL!

ok, i am lost for words now. the words from my mind just jammed like a photocopy machine jam.

well never mind. till the next post,

good bye =)



p.s. will skies of mine ever be so bright?

Labels: amy whinehouse, sleeping late

god knows how long it was since we took a picture like this.

i just got one thing to say.

i love you all.

:)

Labels: family, love

woah. look at how long ago i last posted. no wonder nobody misses me.

LOL

pretty boring life i have. or maybe not? i just can't find the mood to blog.

more like blogged half way and got tired of it. haha. =/

everything seems boring to me now. while maybe cause i am under a lot of stress.

hey wait, that does contradicts right? haha. what am i thinking of man. well that figures, i am always not in my right mind when blogging.

everything just comes pouring out like random river flows.

argh forget about those wordy wordy passages of words.

time for some pictures?

gosh i thought i heard a low cheer in the background. LOL






ok, something i whipped up that day for lunch.

now i can't see why people complaint so much about cup noodles. I mean, just add a little something to it then it will be just as nice as any noodle store outside.

maybe not as much nutritional value but heck! it is nice ok!

well i would pass the idea of it if i am a huge lazy bum. cause i have to admit, it does takes a tad bit more effort to make maggie taste nicer.

but it is worth every sweat i tell you. brings maggie to a whole new level. LOL

a few more random pictures,



zomg. the beauty of the ferries wheel. @o@!!



and how do i explain this? LOL

my supervisor childishly playing with the fire gun (i don't know what is it called) in mr curry's kitchen.

i secretly believe she wanted to burn the whole place down but she denied. LOL!

and last but not least,



my unfinished blog banner.

i am like stuck in this half done inspiration for weeks. damn my creativity cells. i really must get them working soon man. just looking at this banner makes me frustrated for not finishing it.

***

ok i guess that is about it. i can blog no more. sick and tired of somethings already. can't be bothered about anything else.

bye.

Labels: ferries wheel, maggie, supervisor

morning my fellow peeps.

Firstly, i would like to apologise sincerely for the burst of emotions in my previous post. Not very lady like i know. >.<

I guess i just needed a platform to vent anger and my dear blog here was the perfect listening ear. haha. ^^ll

Anyways, What a wonderful day it is to slack today man. I am so freaking envious of people who are able to do so la.

ARGH.

I am due at work at 12 and i am still not moving my ass to get myself ready. I guess the flu bug still lingers around me.

I feel sick. ZZZ

CK sent me some photos he took in Japan last night. AND IT IS CHIO ONE LOH.

maybe not much about my miserable camera's capabilities that i lent him.

Man i really didn't know he had pretty good photography skills at all. LOL

AND ZOMG, JAPAN OK. J.A.P.A.N

EJIDJLKJDASA *goes bonkers* ^^ll

I shall post one of them here to let you all take a look. i hope ck doesn't mind. >.< here goes,





ok, it does not really show Japan much but i think this photo is stunning ok!

I love the way the focus was one the tree behind instead of the flower. Kind of made me realised something philosophical.

"The blooming flower dances around in peoples attention, but in time, the tree behind that stands as the support background will make shine itself as well"

zomg. ok, my mind is not exactly wired in the sensible matter today i guess.

so till the next post, adios! :D

Labels: Japan, random

*ALERT. HIGHLY OFFENSIVE LANGUAGE. READ AT OWN RISK

FUCK.

and i mean seriously, F.U.C.K

everything is going topsy turvy. i dont know who to turn to and i don't know who to trust no more.

Everywhere feels like a battle field now. any moment of misjudgement may just send you straight to Hell's gate, with no hope of returning.

NBCBBFCMN

i don't even know why have i landed myself into this whole pile of shit. I don't even know what is the reason you all issued me the death certificate. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I DIED.

WTF

My mind is a forest full of cobwebs now. Fuck all these issues. i just need an auto focus in life.

indeed life gets more spastic with every year you go. Everywhere you turn you see mannequin faces smiling back at you.

All the same with hidden motives and internal thoughts.

"Oh my god, you so sweet." YEAH RIGHT.

THIS is what you all are really thinking, "tsk, what a spastic girl. so fake. want attention only"

DENY MUCH?

damn am i getting so freaking tired of facing all these. Never have i been able to be at peace since the miserable young age of 14.

4 YEARS ONLY. 4 YEARS and i got myself into so much fucking shit.

HOW ABLE THE OTHER DON'T KNOW HOW MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE!?

great, i really think i have an effing low percentage for my EQ.

so much for overcoming secondary school days and all that shit.

i am back to my original point of with "retard" as my middle name.

ok, hello people.

i have like FINALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY changed back to blogger.

feels so much like home man. -nyuuuuuuuu- o(^o^)o

i have to be like uber honest now,

i have lost my blogging interest like for god knows how long already.

kind of feel lost to be back here racking my brains on what to post.

awww this just sucks,

soooooo what should i post about? outing with the SG cafe people? or Kesh's birthday? Or just on any random stuff that i happen to have in my mind?

argh, i just can't make up my mind man. eeyer.

HEY! why not you all tell me what should be posting about then? i guess it is much more pratical right? reading something that wouln't bore you all out? haha

great, now this whole entire post sounds so commercialised. (=_=)

well, at least i tried. =/

so tell me what you all want on my tagboard right over there ok! ====>

and i will do as you all please. XD

but before i go,


-credits to aiikiki- ^^

Y4 UNITE~! well, jolyn was not able to make it so we found stanly to take over her for awhile.

and obviously he didn't do a very good job. LOL

anyways, till then, bye! ^^

**update

I was planning to create my own blog skin. but i guess lady inspiration is not on my side. :( I got stuck half way through and finally closed it due to frustration.

hmmmm =/

so i would be using this for now. but i guess this is also uber nice. DOUBLE CREDITS TO THE CREATOR~! XD

many things happened at night. i guess it is best not to talk about it ba.

but the bottom line is, we are very sorry. i am very sorry.

i am in a intense confused stage now. i guess time is always the factor when these things happens.

i hope everything is alright ba.


P.S. i think i am really no good at anything for sure

Labels: random, revival