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Wednesday, April 29, 2009
SHAGGED
"Sometimes things are just not under your control"reiko, forget it. stop drifting around.i am sooo shagged now i can't explain more.
just here to inform all,
this blog is in most definate case
NOT dead.
i just need time and
ENERGY to update it.
totally can't think nor type anymore.
till the next time i update.
B.Y.E
p.s. why was i disappointed when i heard that from you?
Labels: shagged
Monday, April 27, 2009
food is my source of happiness
"no food = cranky reiko"
i just can't seem to cheer up. FML
yeap, my tagboard is up and going again.
due to that fact that a lot of people have been complainting they want to tag but there is not tagboard.
so there you go, tag hor! LOL
went to support mike at his gig today.
he can really scream well man!
WELL DONE SCREAMO HIMBO~
LOL. just kidding. XP
and please don't bring your mafia gang come beat me up. ^^ll
a few
VERY BLUR pictures of them on stage.
don't blame me!
they were headbanging all the way!!
totally cool.
the drummers are LOVESSSS. <33
i almost wanted to head bang cause of those beats.
i am sooooo going to learn drums man.
drummers are awesomely cool!
how i wish i could be up there like them. @o@
after that went to join some sg cafe peeps for dinner.
the ban mian was pretty alright.
now don't get all so cocky right there wayne! LOL
anyway, i think i am going to stop right here.
have loads of stuff to do tomorrow and i need my sleep.
bloody hell look at the time.
i am soooo not getting much sleep.
alright, enough of crap,
i shall end here with a AWESOME song.
i love you,
you love me,
we are one big family.
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you,
won't you say you love me too~
omg i am TOTALLY RANDOM. =.="
HOHO. nights. XD
p.s. i really wanted to include something in this post but i forgot what was it about. ARGH.
Labels: barney, gig, screamo, tagboard
Sunday, April 26, 2009
name changing. excitation. LOL
"life sucks"
- Reiko
i am ever so confused again.
TSK
anyway this would be a very short post.
from now on, i have changed my online pen name to
REIKO れいこ
cause i really think my over cute name chika is getting into me.
it doesn't suit me after all right?
haha. ^^ll
but i would still respond to chika till everyone stops.
so please try calling me reiko?
thanks people. i love you all. :)
Labels: REIKO れいこ
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
random night
"The cold wind is blowing through, i am thinking..."this is totally random
i am so sleepy i can literally feel my body's energy draining away.
omg, i really didn't expect school to be this tiring.
it is far much worse than work.
Imagine school then work.omgPathetici realised that i have not talked about school at all since it started.
i just have something to say.
i am not feeling comfortable with it at all.
in fact, i am really dreading it so much now.
why in particular?
i don't want to take such a huge risk by posting it all up here
and get slaughtered on the following day. ><so i guess if you want to know why, pm me.
and if i think i can trust you with it, i will tell you. =)
anyways, there will be very little picture uploads in the upcoming posts including this one.
cause schools been busy and life have been hectic.
pardon me people. ><
argh, it is not like there are many of you following my blog
so what's the point anyway.
haha. ^^ll
ok, i am going to rapidly end this post in the most awkward way.
FUCK YOU BITCHES~
HAHAHA. i am only just kidding. XP
nights. =)
p.s. i am starting to think whether i should give it all up
Labels: random night
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
fucking people screwing up my fucking life
"so tired, so very tired.."i have nothing to say but FML
i am completely
exhausted.
drained dry from all the
existing factors.
physically and mentally.
i can't take anymore emotional blows any more.
may it be big or small.
i broke down today.
but i can't even come up a reason for the
fountain of tears.
well maybe i do know all the various reasons.
but i just can't seem to want to blame my stress on them.
after all, i am always given the choice not to care.
but i sometimes wonder,
do people even care how i feel?
i feel so fucking redundant in these people's lives.
even if i am going to fucking rot away sometime soon in my self
eructed grave
i bet these people won't even care.
why?
CAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING SELFISH PEOPLE THAT'S WHYi am starting to think that it really shouldn't be my life that is fucked up.
it should be these people's.
one of these days sometime ripe,
they are going to realise that what ever
consequences they bear,
is no one's fault but theirs.
i feel so numb i can't really bother to feel anymore.
fuck school
fuck friendships
fuck relationships
fuck
jcgfuck my life
fuck
THEIR lives
I DON'T CAN'T FUCKING CARE ANYMOREcause from this very moment onwards,
i am going to lock all my true feelings into the tiniest, most secured corner of my heart
till then,
NOBODY will be able to take advantage of me anymore.
how to? when you don't know the real me..
p.s. sometimes i feel, there is no need to tell you things anymore. cause you don't fucking care
Labels: fuck
Sunday, April 19, 2009
school reopens :O
"banana, coconut, pineapple, euphoria"something random from my brother.he is indeed very fruit hungry. =.=school reopens tomorrow. whoopeedoo
NOT!argh, i am still in holiday mood.
i can't even sleep early for goodness sake!
and i have to freaking wake up at 6am tomorrow morning.
omg, i better not be late. :O
i guess i will get to it real soon.
i mean school life is better than no life right? =/
^^llanyways, before i force my butt to bed,
i have to make a real big shout out to all,
CHENDOL AT PLAZA SINGAPURA'S FOOD COURT IS A MUST TRY!!omg. i thought i was heaven when i tasted my fist mouth.
Oishii neh~ ^^or maybe cause the weather have been crazily hot recently
that even ice tasted like elixir of life. =.=
alright, i think i better head to bed man.
if not i can't wake up!
by then,
GGFIED
nights people, may all have sweet dreams.
and oh, my fellow friends in rp,
remember to wake up. =)
p.s. things are going on well. thank you for everything. =)
Labels: chendol, plaza singapura, school reopen
Friday, April 17, 2009
worst silence are those with hidden meaning in them
"invisible words beneath the silence"empty pachments speaks most wordsi am very tempted to just leave this post emptyjust a little tribute to my JCG president CK,
thanks for remembering even if you are wayyyyyy in japan. =)
and bloody hell, we need you in the ig so you better not leave ok!
you are very important.
proud right. *eyebrowns*and yes, i spent the whole entire day slacking off at home as mentioned.
call me lazy what so ever ba.
i want to laze all i can before school reopens.
till then, it would be
H.E.L.Lsigh, guess that is school life. =/
******
i was not planning to post anything sendimental nor emotional tonight.
well i guess i really can't ignore the fact.
i am feeling damn fucking bad now.
i can't just take your words as sweeping statements.
it is affecting me too much.
and wtf, the worst thing is that everything seems helpless.
there is absolutely NOTHING i can do.
well except giving you what you deserve.
shall i do just that then?
but then, i will be unfair to someone else in turn.
FUCK IT LA. LIFE IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR
and pardon my coarse language. i am desperate for vention.
******
sigh. i guess there is really nothing i can do about it already.
i would just have to leave it as if i know nothing.
but if you would ever accept my sincere apologises,
i'm sorry.
ps. fuck my life and its dramas.
Labels: sorry, thank you
Thursday, April 16, 2009
girls day out! :D
"i wish time would stop for me"now THAT is ridiculous brenda.i just love girls day out. :Dmissed FOP today cause i was down with high fever this morning.
awwwww can't get to see those new juniors. D:
well anyways i was lucky that my fever went as fast as it came.
cause i was out with my girls in the afternoon!
omg, i love you girls man.
we went around esplanade and had a hell of a time there man!
the camera snapped away and the whole entire roof terrace is filled with our laughter.
man, i got to say this again, i
LOOOOOOOVE you girls man.
XD
the FAMOUS kisa LOL =P
eda eda eda! XD
omg. where am i looking man? =.=and i swear i never
photoshopped my eyes bigger!
i don't know why it looks
soooo big in those pictures. =.="""
must be the lighting!
haha. ^^ll
alright, i know i cheated, these aren't pictures from the terrace.
there are some cam whore pics in the toilet. ^^ll
that's cause the other pictures are all with my girls and they have not sent it to me yet! ><
so i guess i can only upload it next time. *shrugs*
XP
and then we proceed for food and arcade!
weird right. no shopping involved at all.
haha in your face people who always thinks girls outing involves shopping.
MUHAHAHAHA.
please don't beat me up. XPand we went to visit crystal
senpai!
omg, she is still as adorable as ever. ^^
and that kind of sums up my day. :)
tomorrow a brand new day.
perfect day to..
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
SLACK.
MUHAHAHA.
XP*******
you are getting into me.
you know it, i know it.
i am not going to lie
i am not dumb, i get what you mean.
but i am often speechless at what ever you express.
what can i do? vanish and give you what you deserve?
i really don't know.
i have nothing against you.
if it is possible, i would like to be friends with you.
but i guess it is quite impossible.
you have the rights to be angry.
afterall, love is selfish.
but i still hope, that we could get along.
i guess that is all i have to say...******
signing off with lots of smooches
sounding damn bimbotic here
good night. =)
p.s. sotongs.haha..
Labels: girls day out
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
freedom's key
"i never thought i felt this way"S.H.A.G.G.E.Dgosh, i can't even describe it man. =.=
i have not felt so tired for a record breaking long time already.
i want to sleep.anyways, i understood and realized a lot of things during self reflection today.
it is not
necessarily to make self
comparison against you.
cause under all that
comparison is just that sleek layer of our
materialistic selves.
some what like a mere thrill of being better than each other.
does it really matter anyway? everyone is
unique in our way.
we have our own audience, we have our own crowd.
all that's
necessary is being yourself.
and that is the best you are able to offer.
the most beautiful side that people will notice.
may it be now or later.
brenda is tired. but a happy girl today.
cause i learnt an important fact about myself.
i have given freedom the key to my heart. =)
p.s. i am feeling what i am feeling and there will be no more doubts in that..
Labels: shagged
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
crap. i suck at giving titles.
Labels: beyonce, katy perry, yukata
Monday, April 13, 2009
crappy is nyappy. CRAP
"somethings need not be said"the answer lies within us"I HATE YOU"
HAHA. just kidding.
XP
i feel happy today. =)pretty
mundane but exciting day it is.
contradicting i know.
haha. =/
went to school for a presentation, went
grocery shopping with
eda and back.
pretty lifeless eh?
but not shopping with
eda!
omg. she is just adorable.
and we both have the same needs! you
know what i am talking about right eda? *eyebrowns*so we went around getting our needed items and i ended up buying all these..
zomg. you all should pretty much have some idea how my spending habits are like now right. ^^ll.
but the main point isn't this. it is that big rectangular box in the middle.
the one that has two very different looking guys in the cover and spells, "
DETROIT METAL CITY"
@o@!! i can listen to
amai amai and kill everybody everyday if i want to!! *o*
haha. alright that is a little too over dramatic. =.=
basically i bought this for my brother cause he is not officially 16 yet and was refused at the counter.
awwwww.so now he can enjoy it at the comforts of home!
bk, you should really love me to bits man.
LOL. just kidding.
XDoh oh oh! before i forget! take a look at this!
JANG JANG JANG JANG.
behold the
naoya look alike!! :O
i promised myself to take it down the next time i saw it on the train windows and there it is!
LOL.
zomg. someone ask
naoya come and see.
HAHA.
XPalright, i am tired already. there are some more photos i want to post up.
but i guess you all have to wait for the next post.
causemybed is CALLING
ME!enough said,
wishing all good days ahead,
ja ne~ =)
Labels: grocery shopping, yukata
Saturday, April 11, 2009
my mind went blank when i was trying to think of a title
"i only have three words for you. i dislike you."what a day. i should have just stayed at home.
sighthere is nothing much to say about it too. but so much it had impacted me.
WHY THE FUCK WERE YOU WITH US TODAY?i guess i was really not able to cover up my unhappiness. but i tried. really tried. perhaps it is cause you are really making me very uncomfortable. and yes, it is fear that i feel.
but despite all that, i am happy to meet up with you all. reminiscing all the good old time we had together.
*hugs* ^^
i am not going to hide that i am losing my blogging touch. i guess it is quite obvious already. but i just can't bear to let myself to blog about my daily life.
i don't know why. i am an oddball afterall. :D
"life's all but a complicated piece of art. sometimes you see things sometimes you don't"haha. right, that is my aspect of life. you make it wonderful, you're happy. you ruin it, affects you too.
=/
i guess every one's life is different. sometimes we might cross paths and realise, "hey, we are friends". and after that, we are back to square one.
withstanding relationships depends not only on one's self, but on the opposite party too. to paint a picture together is a difficult process. however the ending result is often sometime out of our expectations.
RANDOM: i totally miss blogging in Chinese.
and god damn it. i just realized both my lappies doesn't support Chinese typings.
ARGGH
REMINDER TO SELF: get Chinese typing up and working as soon as possible. =V=
and so, to end of this really random and
nonsensical blog post,
power puff girls straws! ^o^ pardon me for getting the arrangement wrong. the soyabean milk was too much to resist. ^^ll
nights to all angels. that includes you. =)
p.s. i think i am growing closer to you..
Labels: loves =)
Thursday, April 9, 2009
true friends?
这是万能阿伯，有事就说，没事就退朝=x says:
*So i shall be tht true fren lor
*What's so hard ?
*at least i dun hi and bye =/
CHIKA E26A =.= says:
*LOL!!
*well you better not if not i will kick your ass hard!
unleash the violence within~ LOL
well, i am most of the time really bored nowadays. looking forward to school reopen? nahda.
anticipating going to work? nope not at all.
excited to be able to slack my whole day? omg. no. shoot me in the head
longing to out with friends? lazzzzzyyyyyyyy
haha. look at how fcuked up i am? i really need to get a life. =)
had a long good chat with a person who knows. it has been a loooooooong looooooooong time since i had such an in depth and influential chat with someone. it really feels good. =)
well, i really hope you will keep your promise to never sink into a "hi" "bye" friend. i trust you. i think you are a nice person. aside from all the weird theories that always made sense. =X
what can i say? close friends are hard to find. true ones are even harder. close friends turn on each others too. true friends don't. =/
enough said and enough done. i guess it still narrows down to individuals.
i am not going to drag on. i am tired and i need sleep. will be off to Malaysia for the whole day tomorrow so don't bother contacting me. drop me a text and i will reply as soon as i get back. =)
adios my dear skunkers. and once again i am kidding. CIAOS~ =)
P.S. i need a life. i think you need one too.
Labels: friends, random, violence
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
omg. i am not myself today.
what have i just done man. shit. fcuk.
i am losing control of myself. someone just shoot me.
i am losing my mind.
peace
CHIKA E26A =.= says:
*DON'T TELL ME YOU ARE LEAVING JCG
.:woOf:. says:
*lol no
CHIKA E26A =.= says:
*I WILL KICK YOUR ASS IF YOU ARE
i guess that shows how violent i can get. :)
well, i guess many people are expecting answers from me. i am also guessing that there are truck loads of "whys!?" waiting right at my door step now.
SIGHsurprisingly, as i am jotting this piece of my memory down at this moment, i feel peace.
something i have not felt for many months already.
it is weird to know that peace is so sustainable even when there is so much chaos bombarding you from all different directions.
i guess this is what you call
inner peace. one step towards self actualization. :)
i know you all want to know what happened. you all want to know what caused this sudden change. but to tell all a truth, i have no idea myself at all.
hmm. maybe i do know after all. but i have always keep it safe in denial. i guess
life is all but a big fat lie.SIGHi am going to put all these aside for now and concentrate on grabbing hold of this long desired inner peace. i don't want to think about things so much anymore. you are right kisa, there is nothing i can do after all.
just hoping for the best..
and the day of realisation.
"someday the light will come and shine the path you should be taking. it is not the matter of how, it is the matter of when" -brenda
Labels: peace
Monday, April 6, 2009
i am in a dilemma now.
to continue with it and hope for something to happen,
or to end it fast.
i am trying my best to feel. hoping that i can get butterflies in my stomach. but i have to be really honest, i felt none yesterday.
i am really sorry.
this is indeed the first time i am having all these doubts. there is just no feel.
i like you, you are really nice. really caring. really cute.but it just stops there. there is nothing more than that.
i am trying to find something that is more then like. i promise i will try. but i feel that it is very unfair to you. to make you wait for a unpredictable answer.
i feel damn guilty right now.
people are going to hate me for sure if i ever have the courage to post this up. but i believe you have the rights to know. i don't want to lie to you.
maybe we need more time? i really don't know.
you have every right to hate me now. i beg you to be angry with me. i feel that i have led you down. there is nothing that can express my guilt right now. i feel horrible. i feel like a bitch.
i guess i really need more time. i need to sort my feelings out. you have every right to leave. i won't blame you for i am such a bitch to do this to you.
i just need sometime alone.
once again, i am really sorry. hurts my every soul while typing all these things down. i really hope you will understand.
sorry.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
13 going on 30..when is it my turn?
i just finished watch my 93193759294 times of "13 going on 30" and i still love it SOOOO much.
i am jealous. yeah, real jealous of jeanna rink(Jennifer Garner).
JUST LOOK AT HER!!
she is attractive, appealing and has big boobs! D<
ok, i know it sounds super stupid to be jealous of a made up character. BUT SHE IS SO ENVIOUS-ABLE(self made word. don't bother looking for it in the dictionary)!!
i mean, she is in love with this guy, how not to be envious?
Matt Flamhaff(Mark Ruffalo)
ok fine, i grant you that he is not the best looking guy ever. but his voice just melts me. X3 and he has italian blood!
and he is just SOOO ADORABLE in the show!
awwwwww. :3
and and and, she is like has a totally lovable charater in the show!
and she gets to do sleepovers!! *jealous* TwT
i always wanted to have sleepovers with my girlfriends when i was young. but i was brutally deprived of it. so i get REALLY jealous when others can do sleepovers with their girlfriends. D<
and best of all, they get to live happily ever after!
so sweet man....^^
to those who have watched this before, i guess you all know what i am talking about.
and to those who have not watched it before. it is a must watch.
SO GO WATCH IT! i am not going to be a spoiler. :)
but i guarentee sweetness oozing from the very start of the show. LOL
well, i hope you all can see from all these random stuff i post on top are signs that chika is getting bored.
entertain me anyone?
HOHOHO.
ciaosu~ ^^
Labels: 13 going on 30
Friday, April 3, 2009
random facts? or not.
ok, i am back
don't look at me this way, i am bored ok!
10 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT BRENDAwanna hear about it? HEE HEE
FACT 1: I don't worship sweet things.
yeah, i do eat them but a house made of candy would never ever be in my wish list. overwhelming sugar makes me nuts so no chocolates for valentines! *but i don't mind ice cream* HO HO!
FACT 2: I am obsessed with and simply ADOOOORRREEE furry animals. *faints*
ZOMG. There are like the most LOVABLE things ever living on earth la! Soft toys that are furry are loves too. –nyuuu- ^^
FACT 3: I can be very shy when I first meet people. But after a while I would be ok le. ^^ll
AND I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE DON’T BELIEVE ME IN THIS. D<
FACT 4: I cannot live without music.
Oh my god. I can die if I am caught without my mp3 man. I will swear at myself till I feel guilty. LOL. =.=”
FACT 5: I don’t like long showers.
Ok ok, I can feel deadly stares at me now. But yes, I DON’T LIKE LONG SHOWERS. But doesn’t mean I shower. I shower at least twice daily ok!! >.<
FACT 6: I like watching tv dramas
Well that explains all my advices that make sense even without concrete experience. Oh don’t thank me. Thank those all so mighty script writers. :)
FACT 7: I don’t think I really have high EQ.
Hmm. I distinctively remembering some people telling me I have an acutely low EQ. well, I went to take LOADS online tests and my EQ have always high. Hmmm. confusing eh? Well who am I to judge? LOL
FACT 8: I have a low percentage of 0% for my immune system according to kisa
Well. Maybe not THAT bad. A few percent perhaps? Haha. ^^ll
FACT 9: I am like 85% of the time random.
Yeap. I am super random and I guess most of you guys know? LOL it is my weird attempt to try to socialize with other beings. Randoming seems to work every time. LOL
FACT 10: I don’t like coming up with 10 random facts of myself.
GOSH. FINALLY I AM AT MY 10th. @_@!! I CANNOT believe I took around 5 WHOLE MONTHS to finish this bloody post. Guess coming up with 10 random facts about yourself isn’t an easy task after all. I realize I would start cracking my brain for stuff I wish to know about myself.
And yeah I know, that is VERY disturbing. LOL
Anyways, i am going to end this post really soon cause the antibiotics are really draining me hell dry man.
I am jelly like from head to toe and really sucks.
GOD DAMN YOU ANTIBIOTICS. VERY EFFECTIVE. BUT VERY DRAINING. *&#@$&
Oh my god. I am really out of my mind.
Till the next post,
Enjoy your days goofballs! Just kidding. XD
P.S. I finally got haloscan working. Took me like 94837284856248 hours to have it installed. Fcuking irritating I tell you. =.= sooooo, don’t let my efforts go to waste? Haha. Use my comment system pl0x. cause replying in tagboards are really kinda getting a little frustrating. THANKS A LOT! XD
Labels: random facts
tag replies
haha people, don't be so happy to see that i updated. i am just replying tags here cause i can't bloody get haloscan working.
and replying tags on cbox is so much of a hassle. squeezing only limited words in to one tag.
IRRITATING. LOL
anyways,
AIIKIKI : where got nice man? anyhow chapalang do one. haha. ^^ll AND YEAH, SOCHII CUTE RIGGGGHHHHTTTT~ LOL! i think she doesn't know her pic is here yet. if not, JANG JANG JANG JANG. i also don't know what will happen. LOL! ><
SHINN : haha. your this style --> ~!~!. you always have all these after you shout out something in cyber world. LOL! and i don't there is a need to change lungs la. haha. just need to heal mine. :)
KISA : haha. don't know. just infected loh. then doctor say i coughed too much, i hurt my muscles there too therefore explains the chest pains. haha. suspected to be mild pneumonia. he gave me antibiotics le. but if it doesn't get any better, i would need to go for X rays and maybe pay a visit to the doctors and nurses in the hospital. LOL ^^ll
YUKI : LOL! you and kisa ahhhh. tsk tsk tsk. LOL!!
Labels: tag replies
Thursday, April 2, 2009
famous or infamous?
ho ho ho. i am back. and i really doubt anyone cares.
even
kisa says that my blog is a blog that has nothing to comment on.
well i guess i shouldn't really care? cause this is a personal online dairy that i can write what ever i want and shouldn't be even slightly bothered that no one is visiting. blah blah blah
BULLSHIT.
i mean come on, who doesn't want many hits in their blog counter? if not explain the existence of
statecounters.
who doesn't want to know how much people are actually bothered enough to read their blogs? if not why all the
emo posts.
who wouldn't want to be a little celebrity in their own
cyber world space? if not why start a blog in the first place?
haha. i may be a little
materialistic and
bimbotic right now but i guess what ever i pointed out are facts.
hmmmm.
well whatever~ i mean i can't force people to read something that bores them out of their socks right.
LOL.
hell right man.
hahaok, so i FINALLY went to the doctors and i am glad i made that
decision.
my lung are infected. =.=""
yeap,
that's right. you read it, it is infected. and i have no bloody idea what happened.
LOL. =/
i guess i really need to get my health back. i can already feel its side effects and it freaking sucks
ZZZZZZZZZZZZok, i am going to stop here.
was meant to be a quick post in the first place.
haha.
will update more soon! :D
bye.
