"so tired, so very tired.."
i have nothing to say but FML













i am completely exhausted.
drained dry from all the existing factors.
physically and mentally.
i can't take anymore emotional blows any more.
may it be big or small.




i broke down today.
but i can't even come up a reason for the fountain of tears.
well maybe i do know all the various reasons.
but i just can't seem to want to blame my stress on them.
after all, i am always given the choice not to care.





but i sometimes wonder,
do people even care how i feel?





i feel so fucking redundant in these people's lives.
even if i am going to fucking rot away sometime soon in my self eructed grave
i bet these people won't even care.



why?



CAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING SELFISH PEOPLE THAT'S WHY




i am starting to think that it really shouldn't be my life that is fucked up.
it should be these people's.
one of these days sometime ripe,
they are going to realise that what ever consequences they bear,
is no one's fault but theirs.





i feel so numb i can't really bother to feel anymore.
fuck school
fuck friendships
fuck relationships
fuck jcg
fuck my life
fuck THEIR lives





I DON'T CAN'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE
cause from this very moment onwards,
i am going to lock all my true feelings into the tiniest, most secured corner of my heart
till then, NOBODY will be able to take advantage of me anymore.





how to? when you don't know the real me..