i guess that shows how violent i can get. :)

well, i guess many people are expecting answers from me. i am also guessing that there are truck loads of "whys!?" waiting right at my door step now.

SIGH

surprisingly, as i am jotting this piece of my memory down at this moment, i feel peace.

something i have not felt for many months already.

it is weird to know that peace is so sustainable even when there is so much chaos bombarding you from all different directions.

i guess this is what you call inner peace. one step towards self actualization. :)

i know you all want to know what happened. you all want to know what caused this sudden change. but to tell all a truth, i have no idea myself at all.

hmm. maybe i do know after all. but i have always keep it safe in denial. i guess life is all but a big fat lie.

SIGH

i am going to put all these aside for now and concentrate on grabbing hold of this long desired inner peace. i don't want to think about things so much anymore. you are right kisa, there is nothing i can do after all.

just hoping for the best..

and the day of realisation.

"someday the light will come and shine the path you should be taking. it is not the matter of how, it is the matter of when"
-brenda

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