"I have never had this feeling of lost for a long time"everything is solved. why do i still feel that something is missing..
i keep forcing myself to believe that i am healthy.
ignoring all the obvious signs of deterioration
finally,
finally,
my body proved me otherwise.
i don't know how much longer i can make myself appear healthy to you all.
but definitely you all can see the difference.
i know i look horrid these days.
sorry.
i can't help it.
sigh.
the varsity of life.
once something is over,
other things start erupting.
how marvellous.
sucks to feel so helpless with your body.
i keep popping pills at nights.
keep bearing the pain.
so lethargic.
so tired
nothing much more to say.
not something i can choose.
just don't sunk your body conditions to mine
it is not good at all
take it from someone who knows..
P.S. enough brenda. time to make up your mind.
